Gonna stop blogging. Goodbye! :)

You say, "when i fight, i fight back."
So, fight. I want to see you lose.
Again. and again. and again..
this might hurt just a little.

All i need is..

i want to know what it'd be like

to find perfection in my pride

to see nothing in the light

i'll turn it off, in all my spite

in all my spite, i'll turn it off

I said your heart, it don’t beat, it don’t beat the way it used to

and your eyes don’t see me no more.

And your lips, they don’t kiss, they don’t kiss the way they used to

For reasons unknown.

For reasons unknown.

watching the ones i love being happy makes me happy

maybe that's why i'm so broken

no one's happy anymore

I've reasoned with myself way too many times. So i've finally came to a conclusion. If you were such a nice person, you'd know the right thing to do. But you refuse to back down and leave us alone. I know i haven't exactly been the nicest person to you, but at least I know my mistake. So if you want this hostility to carry on, fine by me. But just know that there's going to be a lot of ugly coming your way :)

I love reading your letters.It conforts me, and sometimes i can even convince myself that you still feel that way about me. Or that maybe someday you will love me the same way.

I am inlove with you nes, even though you may not be

"For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded"

I felt my heart being yanked out, stepped on, and dropped from the highest level. And now it's dead

In times like this, i'm thankful no one ever reads this blog...

Lately my life has been pretty eventful...kind of like a movie. So many things i wish to change, but so many things out of my control. I've thought about this carefully, and if he leaves me, I will change. I know the kind of person i will become. Cold, hard, scary. It's sort of like...he has the whole of me and if he leaves he takes me along too. But that leaves nothing left for the actual me. So i've heard i think way tooo much. I know i'm not suppose to let my mind take control..but everytime i stray. Sometimes i wish i was more beautiful. Maybe then i would win...

It's difficult trying to explain to people why you do the things you do

"Sometimes I feel like I was born backward, like, you know, I came out of my mum the wrong way. I hear words pass me backwards. People i should love - i hate, and people i should hate..."

I'm thinking of getting my anchor tattoo..representing all the things that will keep grounded. Forever.

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