In times like this, i'm thankful no one ever reads this blog...

Lately my life has been pretty eventful...kind of like a movie. So many things i wish to change, but so many things out of my control. I've thought about this carefully, and if he leaves me, I will change. I know the kind of person i will become. Cold, hard, scary. It's sort of like...he has the whole of me and if he leaves he takes me along too. But that leaves nothing left for the actual me. So i've heard i think way tooo much. I know i'm not suppose to let my mind take control..but everytime i stray. Sometimes i wish i was more beautiful. Maybe then i would win...